Things I never expected

Never thought i would say this, but I never knew that what people think of me with just a single picture is really... Awkward, for me...
Never thought that the image I portray to others is always so different from the way I think of myself.
But never thought that I would regret meeting new people never thought the day would come, but i also never thought that i would be able to easily brush it all off so easily.
I guess I have changed... Never expected it to happen.

Unseen, Uncoloured, Unknown

I'm tired, it's frustrating, this isn't a play I want to be a part of, a my life with no change in my role. I want to scream at the top of my lungs, scream at everyone, Anyone, "I am here!" I want them to look at me and only me not what they they heard, not what they see but what is right there.
"No matter how many years would have passed, I would still be the same at heart,
All the good, all the bad, all the still time and finally all the dreams out of my reach. 
Weighing our lives like it's a competition, when in reality it never mattered,
It's colourless where I am, the occasional coloured smears eventually disappears,
leaving me in that room, waiting for the darkness, waiting for the sun, waiting forever on."

The First post after an eternity

Heh people XD
now every first post of all my blogs are now with the same title " The First Post after an Eternity" :P cause technically it is true XD okay i'm now deciding which part of the recounts i should be talking about it's been so long and i just have no idea how to start.

So i'll start with a decent well wishing ^^ students who have just finished your 'o' levels in early november ^^ CONGRATS XD XD XD don't stress too much this holiday it's time to relax don't stress
and students who have finished with their exams and/or their school year and are on holiday Don't stress as well XD (....i use too much don't stress ....hmm...) anyways if you're lagging behind on your work don't only study maybe for 2~3 hours but take breaks it's a hoilday ^^ as for the others work hard at whatever you're doing and yeah ....DON"T STRESS XD :P

life have been slightly better for me since my last few posts my 'O' levels are O-V-E-R !!!!!! XD XD and yup i'm happy but it's getting boring =.= i need a JOB !!!!!! well technically i WANT a job haven't been doing much at all but laze around surf the internet playing cafe world (yes, IT IS facebook T.T , doesn't it show how bored i am) and when i'm not lazy i'm walking about shopping centres to look for jobs or just hang (My friends have jobs T.T ) and in a first time in ages i have watched a movie alone by myself again T.T ( i think this is where my friends usually tell me i need a boyfriend =.=) okays anyways other then an occasion job interview( which i keep turning down : Horrible job hours and even more HORRIBLE pay T.T why does things never go right ) it's pretty boring ....

you know what i never really say anything positive nowadays =.= damn i need a good stress outlet ..... WHICH is why i posted a wanted post on my other blog : Wanted Items and such ^^ go check it out ^^

before i bore anyone else take a look at this picture ^^ enlarge it to see the words clearly

i got this from ZguWei's blog XD

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
crazy fan ^^ (jaslyn's lao da gave me this name XD)
Ng
Wen ah

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
Wierdyume
Sammy
Yume kirumi

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
Eat...
Laugh...
Think(i hate this =.=)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
I CAN FIGHT XD
i don't think
i am crazy

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
i'm born in a family of FREAKING TALL people =.=
i'm stupid
I can never keep a friend for more than 3years =.= (mei jin is an exception)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
chinese?
Singaporean?
mom's womb?

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
My anger(more of what people should be afraid of)
LIZARDS !
A boring world

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
umm my shirt
pants
headphones

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
Fun
Fist
Fight

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
Music
Comics
a metal pipe in store(joking :P MONEY!)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
Avril Lavigne
Aya hirano
Paramore

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
YAOI
a few (hundreds) of fist fights
Daydream (like how to murder a person you hate...)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
misery business by paramore
Don't tell me by avril lavigne
meiQ from Tantei gakuen Q opening song

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
Passing 'o' levels with 10 points
Sleeping for 14 hours without having to wake up for school =.=
murder my principal and go Scot free

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
Not murdering the people who is still pissing me off like shit =.=
studying harder(actually not studying at all)
dropping my handphone in the toilet in johor and not getting it back

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Love (what else =.=, hate?)
freedom
a Very devoted handsome boyfriend XD XD

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
ME! even if the world doesn't want me XD
a whole lot of attitude
my insanity

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
i am so going to pass 'o' levels
i am BORED .....
i am loving the world

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
They have something i don't
some of them are so DAMN HOT!! XD
they are strong

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
they can REALLY express their feelings(if they know you and maybe if they don't)
they act before they think
they get jealous easily

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
fail 'o' levels (i will be personally murdered by two important figures)
Be a loner
be SANE...

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
my hair
my Home
MY TELEVISION T.T

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
A GIGANTIC TEDDY BEAR XD (i didn't even need to think)
my dream career
a Drum set XD

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
Parents.
siblings
MYSELF XD

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
music related things( singing, dancing, playing instuments)
Photography
Fighting

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
SLEEP
Fight
write bullshit(wait if i'm doing this now is that considered ?)

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
triple threat actress (dancing acting singing)
Writer
Chef

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
hawaii
New York
Japan

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
Dark ( d.n angel)
Killua (hunterXhunter)
Ikuto (shugo chara)

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
Tyki Mikk(d.gray-man)
Hitsugaya Toshirou ( bleach)
and my crush ( i will NEVER tell!)

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
Yuzuki Tani
Chiyoko Yuki
and the Bloody girl I HATE!!!!!!

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
To have my dream career
To have my dream life
to have my dream husband

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY:
people i wish to kill but they don't even know this quiz even existed XD XD
same as answer 1
same as answer 2 ^^

I finally went on my bike XDXD

Okay the title is wierd but i have a good explanation^^

Explanation in progress ---
Only a few of my friends in school knows this but on the last day of last year i got myself a trauma, reason, i was cycling on that day to my favorite place- west coast park ^^. The thing was, on my way back, at a workshop or something , a van came at me when i was crossing that entrance and good thing was it was nowhere near the speed of killing me XD (lucky!) but well even if it made contact with me the van kept on moving and well, my bike was getting pushed in a direction that it should not be going. Luckily for me before i was dragged along i jumped off but well i did not want to go on a bike again after that. (you can't blame me, i am only human)

Well before i make you gasp or anything i was fine and today i finally pulled up my courage to ride the bike again ^^ (Praise me XD, you don't really have to, but if you want to i gladly accept^^) by actually riding again i actually saw a breathtaking sight - the sea was red; the sun was half-way down (but i cursed myself for not having a camera T.T) that will be another story T.T

Anyways i have motivational workshop tomorrow and i'm too hyped up so if it's worth to be this hyped i wil so report it tomorrow i have to do very insane things now ^^ thanks for listening ^^

By the way- it won't hurt for someone to comment on my page it's really...... empty T.T
oh and an extra picture for you to enjoy


i believe this is true^^( no offense ^^)

Holy crap!

How long has it been since the last time when i posted something ????
ah well, forget about it ^^ okay people an update of things in my life and another note of good-bye for quite a while

First of all my life, IT"S SO BORING !!!! it's actually what it is so that's how i sum it up ^^
but going into detail, it's more rebellious than ever, i fought with my teacher today cause i got fed up going for my CCA and all i have to do is sit down there and 'tutor' my juniors and not take part in any activities at all =.=
i felt like a worker and it was for free =.= plus what my teacher said about my CCA being my top priority was frustrating and so i snapped and well..... i guess everyone can guess what happens next :P XD
Oh and last but not least , i know despite everything that had happened i'm actually VERY lucky XD i managed to survive today's Parent's meet and to students like me nowadays it marks the day when most of us gets murdered XD XD XD AND the most shocking thing happened during this meet..... i saw my marks and i got myself ...........
AN A1 FOR MATHS XD XD XDXDXD isn't that shocking^^ well not to those who has never seen my report card but ME !!!! A1 FOR MATHS !!!!!!that has got to be a record in the Guinness book of record ^^ .

I'm already jumping for joy but i still failed 4 subjects :P T.T i'm under close supervision but still had some slack cut because of my maths ^^ THANK YOU PERSON WHO HELP ME DO THAT XD XD
okay and before i forget and sign out the last thing that made me lucky that despite all those marks i got i am still very VERY INSANE XD (not that much of a good thing for my close friends though :P :P) And the reason why i can be so insane is still unknown XD XD (unexplainable phenomenon ) XD XD well it's good cause at least i'm not stressing and becoming SO depressed because my GCSEs are arriving (Yikes!)

and with that i have to go T.T thanks for listening to my rantings (to whomever who actually read to this part^^ )
now i have to attend to a VERY stressful homework pile T.T

before i bore you any further take a look at the picture after this line ^^ (ENJOY!)^^

Merry christmas XD

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE OUT THERE !!!!!!

it's always fun to do this ^^ don't wish to do anything today so this is as long as my post will go have a merry christamas everyone XD